Ok so something rather interesting occurred to me during Holy Hour of Adoration yesterday and now I don't know what to do about it. As some of you around here know, since October I have been compelled to make prayer books and prayer services that I have printed off and passed out to friends and family. The first prayer book I made in October came about in the form of a prayer service one could lead with others to offer up for a beloved soul. Originally this started out with the idea of doing this for a loved one about to die (was praying to God about my 90 year old grandmother and thinking about when that time comes and this idea popped into my head instantly after that prayer) or recently departed but then realized it could be done for any soul really. It consisted of 1. The Devotion of the 7 Sorrows 2. The Glorious Mysteries of the Rosary 3. The Chaplet of Divine Mercy 4. A few Hymns to sing on their behalf. I felt that it would only take 2 people to gather and do this for someone and the blessings from heaven would be amazing. The second book I made in January was all devoted to Mary and again it came about one day in deep prayer and thinking about Mary and how my feelings about her completely changed in less than a year to one who thought of her more as many protestants feel and approached her with caution to a complete 180 turn and am now her devout and loyal slave and have fully consecrated myself to Jesus through her in the manner that St. Louis DeMontfort laid out for us. This book was literally created in about 2 hours and just poured right out of my head as to who Mary is. The third book I have just finished and now am editing. It is an idea to spend every day of the year in prayer. It begins on Christmas Day and finishes on Christmas Eve. It is a collection of 42 novenas to do throughout the year and some Feast Days of Prayer (as I call them) to fill in the gaps since 365 is not divisible by 9. The feast days of prayer would comprise of spending that day by giving glory to God and offering up prayers for suffering souls by going to confession if possible, communion if possible, adoration if possible, fasting, recite the Holy Rosary with the mystery of your choice or all of them, recite the Chaplet of Divine Mercy and recite the devotion to the 7 Sorrows of Mary. Putting this together was a wonderful puzzle and I would try to coordinate many novenas with their actual feast day on the calendar like doing the Corpus Christi Novena prior the celebration of Corpus Christi. This was not a perfect fit but most of the time the novenas would at least occur during that week and sometimes would end on the eve of the feast day. So yesterday I was editing the third book and went to adoration over lunch. I like to end my Holy Hour by saying the Chaplet of Divine Mercy. For whatever reason, during this chaplet as I was deeply thinking about the Passion of Our Lord and the pain he endured each step of the way, each decade of the chaplet prayers came out different than normal from my mouth and I would focus and offer up the prayers to the wounds he endured. I came to a realization that there are 5 decades to this chaplet and ironically enough there are 5 major wounds inflicted on Our Lord. These wounds have been talked about before in other devotions and other manners but I discovered after this change in the chaplet that none sum them all up. So in the first decade of the chaplet for example out of my mouth on each small bead came, "For the sake of His sorrowful passion especially the pain he endured at the scourge, have mercy on all souls." The second decade focused on the pain to his head by the crowning of thorns and being struck by the read. The third decade focused on the pain to his shoulder caused by the cross ripping it up (St. Bernard's prayer to the shoulder). The fourth focused on the pain caused by the nails to the cross. The fifth focused on His pierced side. After adoration I came back to my office and could not get these out of my mind and put to paper a Chaplet devoted to the 5 wounds of His Passion. When I finished it (in literally under an hour) I decided to google to see if there was one already out there. I did find a chaplet to His Wounds but it was not specific to each wound of the Passion but was one in general. So now I have this Chaplet created and don't know what to do with it. Do I pray it? Do I talk to a priest about it and give it to him to look over fiirst? Do I share it? I do not want to lead anyone or even myself away but this just came out and I feel I am suppossed to do something with it. The prayers of the chaplet are all my own and I am no one in the church other than a cradle catholic who left for many years only to return in 2013 and now have all this stuff working in my head. I truly feel that it had to be inspired because it came out of Adoration and deep prayer to Our Lord during that time to truly be used to help save many souls in whatever way He wished to use me. Any of your thoughts would be greatly appreciated. I would be happy to share the prayers of the chaplet with you too but am very hesitant to do it publicly since nothing like this has ever happened to me before. I would be happy to do so in a private conversation if you would like.
on a side note, I tried to get this edited 3 times since for some reason some of what I typed did not appear and each time my browser crashed before I could make some changes. Weird! I have now switched browsers from explorer to firefox and it seems to be working now.
