Thanks lois. I tell Jesus that I love him all the time and that I want to help souls. I get mass daily and go to confession and I pray the rosary and chaplet of divine mercy. I am due to go on pilgrimage soon. I number of people have told me that they have felt God's love for me in prayer but I cant feel it myself. But the horrible feeling of damnation comes up quite often.
The horrible feeling that I am damned wont go away. It is agonizing and very difficult to deal with. Perhaps jesus wants to share some of his passion with me. I hope so anyway. I dont mind suffering once I know Jesus loves me and forgives me
Well, He does love you. He suffered for you because He loves you. And, He forgives you in the confessional thru the priest. And there's this truth: A priest once said that we should "love with the love that the Lord loves us". So we love you in the Love of the Lord, because we know the Lord loves you ~
Yes Lois. I think Jesus gave us a new commandment at the Last Supper. He told us to love others "as I have loved you". Furthermore, in St. John's Gospel he tells us that the reason we love others is because God first loved us. So Sanctus, if you love anyone else (your mother, father, ...) it is because God loved you first.
One day soon we are going to wake up to a post from you saying how great you feel, Sanctus. May that day be very soon.
Well said, miker, but I believe there is some competition from the Agnus Dei following the sign-of-peace, which is another communal response.
I hope God can shine his light into my life. I had a great spiritual connection before and hope I can get it back again. I have felt glimpses of that connection again lately.
Sanctus, I thought of you when I listened to the homily of Father Matthew, one of the Marian priests at the National Shrine of Divine Mercy. He reads from St. Faustina’s diary about a very dark and barren trial she experienced. Her words are your words, her pain and feelings of abandonment are what you have described. Please listen at the 15 minute mark when Father reveals Faustina’s encounter with Jesus at the end of her dark night, explaining His purpose in allowing such trials. God is with you, Sanctus. https://www.youtube.com/live/lDx97G7MYag?feature=share
The trial is very ddifficult.I feel I have offended God by a sin and am in darkness now as a result. It is a difficult trial but I will keep praying and trust in God because I love him
The feeling of rejection from God is very strong. I hope He shows His face to me again. I hope I haven't done anything to separate myself from him, i go to mass and confession regularly. Perhaps this is a purification. I hope so. I must trust that God loves me and will have mercy on me.
Rejection is a painful cross to bear. Jesus is the perfect example of suffering undeserved rejection and His response is our goal. We are all frail, weak, and seek an end to our many trials but we have to keep in mind the divine will of God. As other forum family members have reminded us, it is an act of the will to surrender to God’s plan for us. It was only when St Faustina surrendered to God’s Will, while still feeling abandoned, was she ready to fulfill God’s ultimate path for her.
By the way, I’m really horrible at accepting God’s Will. I often argue, bargain, or just plain procrastinate doing whatever it is that God is asking of me. But He knows me and patiently waits until I come around. Our love for Him and His love for us is worth any price we may have to pay. So, continued prayers for you during this struggle.
