This may be a strange topic but has anyone else experienced their spiritual/emotional life in full circles? I have been having an awareness of life coming full circle since my conversion many years ago. The circles would come frequently in the beginning and have become less frequent as the years passed by, the last one was approx. 4 years ago. I wouldn't really notice I was in a circle until it had been completed and the Lord would give me an awareness of it. I wouldn't have to do anything (except keep praying) for the circle to start and complete. I often thought it was like the peeling of an onion with rings being peeled away.
A interesting concept, BC. Could you describe one of your cycles to help me grasp the idea better? Safe in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary!
It's difficult to describe other than the way I already have Mario, I wouldn't really know I was in a circle until it had completed and the Lord would show me it was completed. I'm just wondering if others have had similar experiences any times.
Perhaps you are! Mine used to last around 6 months in the beginning and progressed up to years, over the years. Each one being longer than the previous, and as the years progressed the duration of each became considerably longer too.
I don't know if this is what you mean but I have experienced a sort of cycle in my life in regard to extremely painful losses and also general sufferings. With the extremely painful losses, when looking back with hindsight I can see that the Lord was preparing me for these losses but at the time of the loss I was first devastated and then came a feeling of abandoment and then a prayerful time where I tried to understand Gods Will and then acceptance but still a graet sence of saddness. With general sufferings I have found that the Lord has seen fit to give me many; over many years, and so I have developed after many of these cycles, an understanding that I can never second guess God, nor can I second guess His treatment of me, this has given me a truthful fear of God. I have a fear and trembling of God that I never had 20 years ago! This fear and trembling has made me more sombre and I have a deep sadness because of the pain I see that God endures. I also have a great desire to live His will but I also know I am so wretched and can not live up to my expectations of myself, so therefore, I can never live up to my desire for God and this is sad; so I offer this to God. If you are experiencing these cycles than all I can say is that these cycles do lead you to understand your own helplessness and so depend more on God in a far more fear and trembling way. God Bless you Border Collie
Thanks for your reply josephite, I think your experience of cycles are somewhat different to mine, my cycles would be full of normal everyday living, only that at certain times the Lord would show me I had come to completion in one of them, I would be full of peace for a few days and then I would be into the beginning of another which seems to last for years at a time. I have experienced these for almost 30 years.
