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Sanctus "Jesus I trust in you!"

josephite said: ↑

Dearest Sanctus,
I too am wondering about my sins and whether they have a part to play in my sufferings.
My sufferings have increased today!

I wonder why God allows me to live, surely the sufferings I have encountered in the past 30 plus years, (especially the last 5 years) , have been enough to placate Gods anger.

However I am called to suffer anew and with an intensity that has caused, a near spiritual breakdown, as I have not been able to pray a Dominican rosary today nor the Chaplet of St Michael the only prayers I have prayed are my half an hour morning prayers and the seven sorrows rosary.

This is a terrible suffering as it involves one of my children. I do not want to continue with this suffering, I want God to take me home now. I envy the dead so to speak.

I gave myself to the sorrowful Mother Mary many years ago and asked her for sufferings that would placate her most sorrowful Heart.

She has did this and I have felt with each sorrow I experience a strength to carry her sufferings, however, about 2 months ago after much pain, I said to Mary please let me also feel your joys as well, as I felt I was drowning in sorrows, with each prayer I prayed and with each new suffering.

The Lord gave me many strengths to withhold His peace in my heart over the last few years, however, I believe I knew, some suffering was to come that would be overwhelming and I halted because I knew it would be too much for me to bear.

That suffering happened today!

I have been beside myself with a grief that is overwhelming.
With a feeling that I don't want to continue on.
I want to escape this maddening pain.
I want only heaven.

Whether the Church and the world get their act together and recognise the truth of Jesus, has no real bearing on my personal pain,. My pain consists of insanity gone mad and a future with these perspectives of one of my children holds a very bleak future for me.

Lord have Mercy on your and my soul, now. Amen.
Mary mother of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, be a mother to Peter/Sanctus and me right now. Amen

God Bless.

I know the Lord is working right now and I praise and glorify Him.
I thank you Lord for your great Glory.

Please pray for me, Peter
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Thanks for sharing your experience, Josephite. I love God and keep telling Him I love Him. 11 years ago told Hin I would go through anything for Him so perhaps I got my wish.

Sanctus, Jan 3, 2023

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AED said: ↑

Caroline i am praying for you this morning and will keep you on my list. The sufferings we endure from our children are often unendurable and yet we endure them by God's grace. You and Our Mother of Sorrows are very very tied very closely. I pray today for consolation for you.
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Thank you AED.
God Bless you and your family. Amen

josephite, Jan 3, 2023

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Sanctus "Jesus I trust in you!"

InVeritatem said: ↑

Sanctus, as AED suggests this does sound like scrupulosity. I fear sometimes that I might be attacked at the point of death and reject Jesus Christ. However, if we have a devotion to the Most Holy Virgin Mother, Refuge of sinners, we have assurances that Mary will assist us at the point of death. I know that the bar is set very high and that Jesus said we should try to enter by the narrow gate for many will try but will not be able to. However, Jesus is also loving and compassionate. Meditate on the good thief on the Cross who Jesus told would be in Paradise that very day with Him.

The fact is that you want to do God's Holy Will. Intention is everything. God searches our hearts and he knows us.

With your whole hearts turn to God and He will blot out all your sins (Acts 3:19)

I remember talking to a friend who is a priest about salvation. He said something which in a way was a conversation stopper. In a matter of fact way he said, "we'll have to go where ever God sends us". But it made me think a lot about it. It was a very trusting attitude.

As Padraig said recently, we have to be humble and become like children. We just have to trust in our Heavenly Father and our Divine Redeemer. God is good. When you think about it, as Frances Hogan said, when we die we are locked into the Divine Will. We have no control. While we do have some control we need to tread thorny path of prayer, sacrifice, trying to do God's will, of praying for the grace of final perseverance. Because you are trying to do God's will you are well on the way to living in the Divine Will. God doesn't count the magnitude of the outcome of our deeds but the sincerity of intentions and that we do it for love of Him (I know, I need to preach this to myself also!).

I like to think about prophecy made by Saint Elizabeth's husband, Zechariah, about his son John the Baptist - the forerunner of the Messiah Jesus Christ:

... for you will go before the Lord to prepare His way, to give His people knowledge of salvation by the forgiveness of their sins. (Luke 1:68-79)

God will for give your sins. You just need to trust. Some have found a way to even be confident about salvation. I will try to post on that later.

If it is a case that you are having difficulty confessing sins, then you need to keep searhing to find a priest you are comfortable with.

Also Sanctus, I think these words from Pope Benedict XVI on salvation and being forgiven are so consoling. They were posted by Padraig I think in another thread.
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Thanks for this!

Sanctus, Jan 3, 2023

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Sanctus "Jesus I trust in you!"

miker said: ↑

I also have had this happen to me. And I’ve brought it up during confessions…. Priests (some more gently than others) tell me this is a huge sign of lack of trust in God … if past sins… even very serious ones were confessed with sincerity and you received absolution and did your assigned penance, then you are forgiven. Period.

Personally think it’s the evil one who resurrects these sins and seeds the doubts. It’s almost like back in the Garden… the devil tricks Adam and Eve to think they are on par with God… and they hide themselves. Don’t fall for the lie of the devil.

This may have been suggested before but Maybe see if you can get a spiritual director to help walk through all of this?

Peace
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Thanks miker. Yes there are a couple of priests that I talk to.

Sanctus, Jan 3, 2023

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Mario Powers

garabandal said: ↑

We need to pray hard for each other on the forum covering each other in the precious blood of the lamb in prayer.

Rest assured I pray the rosary for all the intentions and prayer requests for every member.

May our Lady spread her mantle over all on the forum and protect us all within her immaculate heart

Ave Maria
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Thank you.

Mario, Jan 3, 2023

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AED Powers

garabandal said: ↑

We need to pray hard for each other on the forum covering each other in the precious blood of the lamb in prayer.

Rest assured I pray the rosary for all the intentions and prayer requests for every member.

May our Lady spread her mantle over all on the forum and protect us all within her immaculate heart

Ave Maria
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Beautifully said Bobby. I include forum members in my rosaries and Mass intentions. United in prayer our intercession become that much stronger. Our Lady takes them and uses them where they are most needed.

AED, Jan 3, 2023

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Logos Guest

josephite said: ↑

Dearest Sanctus,
I too am wondering about my sins and whether they have a part to play in my sufferings.
My sufferings have increased today!

I wonder why God allows me to live, surely the sufferings I have encountered in the past 30 plus years, (especially the last 5 years) , have been enough to placate Gods anger.

However I am called to suffer anew and with an intensity that has caused, a near spiritual breakdown, as I have not been able to pray a Dominican rosary today nor the Chaplet of St Michael the only prayers I have prayed are my half an hour morning prayers and the seven sorrows rosary.

This is a terrible suffering as it involves one of my children. I do not want to continue with this suffering, I want God to take me home now. I envy the dead so to speak.

I gave myself to the sorrowful Mother Mary many years ago and asked her for sufferings that would placate her most sorrowful Heart.

She has did this and I have felt with each sorrow I experience a strength to carry her sufferings, however, about 2 months ago after much pain, I said to Mary please let me also feel your joys as well, as I felt I was drowning in sorrows, with each prayer I prayed and with each new suffering.

The Lord gave me many strengths to withhold His peace in my heart over the last few years, however, I believe I knew, some suffering was to come that would be overwhelming and I halted because I knew it would be too much for me to bear.

That suffering happened today!

I have been beside myself with a grief that is overwhelming.
With a feeling that I don't want to continue on.
I want to escape this maddening pain.
I want only heaven.

Whether the Church and the world get their act together and recognise the truth of Jesus, has no real bearing on my personal pain,. My pain consists of insanity gone mad and a future with these perspectives of one of my children holds a very bleak future for me.

Lord have Mercy on your and my soul, now. Amen.
Mary mother of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, be a mother to Peter/Sanctus and me right now. Amen

God Bless.

I know the Lord is working right now and I praise and glorify Him.
I thank you Lord for your great Glory.

Please pray for me, Peter
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Josephite, the world IS insane and most of our children have been touched to some degree by it. Just keep screaming quietly. God will ensure your head doesn't quite burst. One day at a time. God WILL get you through it. Remember Padre Pio's prayer for healing of mind and body for your child?

Logos, Jan 3, 2023

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josephite said: ↑

Dearest Sanctus,
I too am wondering about my sins and whether they have a part to play in my sufferings.
My sufferings have increased today!

I wonder why God allows me to live, surely the sufferings I have encountered in the past 30 plus years, (especially the last 5 years) , have been enough to placate Gods anger.

However I am called to suffer anew and with an intensity that has caused, a near spiritual breakdown, as I have not been able to pray a Dominican rosary today nor the Chaplet of St Michael the only prayers I have prayed are my half an hour morning prayers and the seven sorrows rosary.

This is a terrible suffering as it involves one of my children. I do not want to continue with this suffering, I want God to take me home now. I envy the dead so to speak.

I gave myself to the sorrowful Mother Mary many years ago and asked her for sufferings that would placate her most sorrowful Heart.

She has did this and I have felt with each sorrow I experience a strength to carry her sufferings, however, about 2 months ago after much pain, I said to Mary please let me also feel your joys as well, as I felt I was drowning in sorrows, with each prayer I prayed and with each new suffering.

The Lord gave me many strengths to withhold His peace in my heart over the last few years, however, I believe I knew, some suffering was to come that would be overwhelming and I halted because I knew it would be too much for me to bear.

That suffering happened today!

I have been beside myself with a grief that is overwhelming.
With a feeling that I don't want to continue on.
I want to escape this maddening pain.
I want only heaven.

Whether the Church and the world get their act together and recognise the truth of Jesus, has no real bearing on my personal pain,. My pain consists of insanity gone mad and a future with these perspectives of one of my children holds a very bleak future for me.

Lord have Mercy on your and my soul, now. Amen.
Mary mother of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, be a mother to Peter/Sanctus and me right now. Amen

God Bless.

I know the Lord is working right now and I praise and glorify Him.
I thank you Lord for your great Glory.

Please pray for me, Peter
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I feel your suffering, josephite. I have asked my guardian angel, if Our Lord allows, to go to you and bring you comfort in your your sorrow. God bless you. +

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Jo M, Jan 3, 2023

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Sanctus "Jesus I trust in you!"

Logos said: ↑

Sanctus, you seem to have been suffering like this for quite a long time. I think it's important that you take care of your physical health also. Do you live with or get support from your family? Have the medical people suggested any possible reason such as depression or anxiety? Eating well and healthily, having some emotional support from family or a support group, getting out into the fresh air and getting some exercise, taking up swimming, doing a 'park-run', joining a choir or something you are interested in, joining a group like a mens' shed, or a volunteer conservation group or a book club in the local library, volunteering at a Food bank etc etc are all things which may keep you active and productive during the day and help take your mind off negative ruminative or intrusive thoughts.
This is the start of a new year and could be the start of you saying you will go to bed every night having done one new or productive activity every day. When you are not in employment and having the demands of structure we also lose out on social interaction: meeting people at the bus stop and in work or college. We can become isolated and actually have too much time to 'think.' Perhaps you should continue with Mass and prayers but instead of pondering why you feel like this, concentrate more on establishing a physically active and nutritionally healthy routine. Look out for some local activities where you can interact and work alongside some others and aim towards securing even a part-time job, even if it seems not too fancy -it's just therapy and a starting point. Take any medical advice which medical specialists have given you. Sometimes when we are down it all seems like so much effort but the longest journey starts with a single step. If we live in a big city it can be harder to make friends and find activities because everybody is just rushing past. In a smaller place sometimes we can be isolated because of poor transport, but there can be things going on if we ask around: mens' sheds, library groups, walking groups, water colour classes, language classes, etc etc. I think you should try a few things and you may discover a new interest. But it is important to be out mixing with people and getting that human contact and warmth. God loves us, but he shows it through other humans. Our contact with others is an opportunityfor God to give us a smile, a witty answer, share a piece of news or useful information, show us beauty in the faces of his creatures, etc etc
I will be praying for you, Sanctus, but please let God help you in more practical ways to relieve your pain.
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Thanks logos.

Sanctus, Jan 3, 2023

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Mark1 said: ↑

…I, too, feel as though I’ve been drowning in an oppressive ocean of anxiety, depression and despair, for decades. It’s minute to minute, and always debilitating. I pray for Heavenly relief for all here, myself included.
I once heard of cloistered nuns or monastic friars, who do nothing but pray. I wish I could find these people, and contact them with my prayer intentions.
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Look online
Carmel of Port Tobacco, MD
Send them an email from their website
These are true prayer warriors
I can’t link from my phone

HeavenlyHosts, Jan 3, 2023

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https://www.carmelofporttobacco.com/

HeavenlyHosts, Jan 3, 2023

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josephite said: ↑

Dearest Sanctus,
I too am wondering about my sins and whether they have a part to play in my sufferings.
My sufferings have increased today!

I wonder why God allows me to live, surely the sufferings I have encountered in the past 30 plus years, (especially the last 5 years) , have been enough to placate Gods anger.

However I am called to suffer anew and with an intensity that has caused, a near spiritual breakdown, as I have not been able to pray a Dominican rosary today nor the Chaplet of St Michael the only prayers I have prayed are my half an hour morning prayers and the seven sorrows rosary.

This is a terrible suffering as it involves one of my children. I do not want to continue with this suffering, I want God to take me home now. I envy the dead so to speak.

I gave myself to the sorrowful Mother Mary many years ago and asked her for sufferings that would placate her most sorrowful Heart.

She has did this and I have felt with each sorrow I experience a strength to carry her sufferings, however, about 2 months ago after much pain, I said to Mary please let me also feel your joys as well, as I felt I was drowning in sorrows, with each prayer I prayed and with each new suffering.

The Lord gave me many strengths to withhold His peace in my heart over the last few years, however, I believe I knew, some suffering was to come that would be overwhelming and I halted because I knew it would be too much for me to bear.

That suffering happened today!

I have been beside myself with a grief that is overwhelming.
With a feeling that I don't want to continue on.
I want to escape this maddening pain.
I want only heaven.

Whether the Church and the world get their act together and recognise the truth of Jesus, has no real bearing on my personal pain,. My pain consists of insanity gone mad and a future with these perspectives of one of my children holds a very bleak future for me.

Lord have Mercy on your and my soul, now. Amen.
Mary mother of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, be a mother to Peter/Sanctus and me right now. Amen

God Bless.

I know the Lord is working right now and I praise and glorify Him.
I thank you Lord for your great Glory.

Please pray for me, Peter
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Praying. I’m sorry for your suffering.

HeavenlyHosts, Jan 3, 2023

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HeavenlyHosts said: ↑

Look online
Carmel of Port Tobacco, MD
Send them an email from their website
These are true prayer warriors
I can’t link from my phone
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Mario, Jan 3, 2023

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RoryRory Perseverance

You are included in my prayers.May you receive peace under Our Lady’s mantel. I am so sorry.
Try and surrender using the Surrender Novena.

RoryRory, Jan 3, 2023

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Mary's child Powers

josephite said: ↑

Dearest Sanctus,
I too am wondering about my sins and whether they have a part to play in my sufferings.
My sufferings have increased today!

I wonder why God allows me to live, surely the sufferings I have encountered in the past 30 plus years, (especially the last 5 years) , have been enough to placate Gods anger.

However I am called to suffer anew and with an intensity that has caused, a near spiritual breakdown, as I have not been able to pray a Dominican rosary today nor the Chaplet of St Michael the only prayers I have prayed are my half an hour morning prayers and the seven sorrows rosary.

This is a terrible suffering as it involves one of my children. I do not want to continue with this suffering, I want God to take me home now. I envy the dead so to speak.

I gave myself to the sorrowful Mother Mary many years ago and asked her for sufferings that would placate her most sorrowful Heart.

She has did this and I have felt with each sorrow I experience a strength to carry her sufferings, however, about 2 months ago after much pain, I said to Mary please let me also feel your joys as well, as I felt I was drowning in sorrows, with each prayer I prayed and with each new suffering.

The Lord gave me many strengths to withhold His peace in my heart over the last few years, however, I believe I knew, some suffering was to come that would be overwhelming and I halted because I knew it would be too much for me to bear.

That suffering happened today!

I have been beside myself with a grief that is overwhelming.
With a feeling that I don't want to continue on.
I want to escape this maddening pain.
I want only heaven.

Whether the Church and the world get their act together and recognise the truth of Jesus, has no real bearing on my personal pain,. My pain consists of insanity gone mad and a future with these perspectives of one of my children holds a very bleak future for me.

Lord have Mercy on your and my soul, now. Amen.
Mary mother of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, be a mother to Peter/Sanctus and me right now. Amen

God Bless.

I know the Lord is working right now and I praise and glorify Him.
I thank you Lord for your great Glory.

Please pray for me, Peter
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Josephite, let me help carry your cross...prayers going up.

Mary's child, Jan 3, 2023

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HeavenlyHosts said: ↑

https://www.carmelofporttobacco.com/
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…Grateful. Your intentions and others here will be sent, along with mine

Mark1, Jan 4, 2023

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Mark1 said: ↑

…Grateful. Your intentions and others here will be sent, along with mine
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Thank you. My husband and I went to their chapel about 20 years ago when the relics of St Therese were there. I keep in touch with them.

HeavenlyHosts, Jan 4, 2023

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HeavenlyHosts said: ↑

Thank you. My husband and I went to their chapel about 20 years ago when the relics of St Therese were there. I keep in touch with them.
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…I just emailed them, mentioning intentions of all here. Thank you so much

Mark1, Jan 4, 2023

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Mark1 said: ↑

…I just emailed them, mentioning intentions of all here. Thank you so much
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HeavenlyHosts, Jan 4, 2023

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josephite said: ↑

Thank you AED.
God Bless you and your family. Amen
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Josephite,

You're on my priority list. St. Elizabeth of the Holy Trinity, pray for Josephite!

Mario, Jan 4, 2023

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